A moment with Ivy

Like the title of my blog, I really am trying to pause often during my day and just enjoy the moment. I try to enjoy the little things like reading books, smiles, giggles, hugs, funny conversations, etc..... I try to really live in the moment and enjoy it because I know I won't ever get that moment back. I wish I wrote down more of these moments to help me remember some day.
2 nights ago I had a really special moment with Ivy. I put her down to sleep around 7:30. She woke up (for the first time) shortly after I fell asleep around 11:30 crying. I didn't think she could be hungry yet, so I sleepily went in her room and tried to just give her her pacifier to see if she'd go back to sleep. As I fumbled in the dark to try to get the pacifier in her mouth, she rolled over onto her back and gave me a HUGE smile. I couldn't help but smile back. Then she giggled, and it took all I had to not giggle back, but my smile was still there. I put the pacifier in anyway, and she kept smiling and giggling even with the pacifier in her mouth while looking up at me. I then realized she was NOT going to just go back to sleep no matter how tired I was. So, I picked her up and decided to try to rock her for a little bit. She kept looking up at me and smiling and laughing while I tried to not make much eye contact and remained stoned face and quiet. She didn't let up. Finally, I caved. I looked down at this happy girl and started laughing out loud too. I kissed her on her head, and cheeks and told her I loved her. We then both kept looking at each other smiling and laughing (out loud) even though it was late and we should be sleeping. I had an urge to take her out of her room and bring her to the living room or my bedroom so we could play for awhile, but knew if I did that it would be hours before she would go back to sleep. I finally decided to go ahead and nurse her. She happily nursed, but kept watching me. She would pause every few seconds and smile at me, and I smiled back until she finally drifted off back to sleep. While she fell asleep nursing I thought to myself, "We are going to have a lot of fun together! We are going to be GOOD friends!"

This may sound strange, but I felt in that moment that I got a small glimpse of our future together. I pictured her much older...like in her 20's....and us just hanging out and laughing at our own inside joke. I really enjoyed that moment we shared, and it made me feel happy about what is yet to come!!